I am madly in love with my best friend. head over heels.

Hello world.
I have all but stopped blogging. And, to be honest, I don't care. In the time since I created this blog I have changed, moved, molded to the world around me to become a better person. I just remembered I had a blog and after reading my previous posts... I can't help but wonder why I thought I was mature when I was a junior in high school. Also, my last post... or last few posts were harsh. Upsetting. And down right rude. Honesty is the best policy. So, this blog, I won't spare any of you who read this any trouble. I was upset a year ago because, I had just broken up with my ex-boyfriend. So, upset, is normal but, I was not upset with the break-up--quite frankly, I saw it coming months in advance (regardless, it still pained me) but, I was more upset that my ex-boyfriend made me call and break-up with him via an answering machine. If I meant anything to you, you should have answered the phone.
Moving on, I realize now, it was a good thing. I still love my ex-boyfriend (in a friend way, now) and, even though I never see him, I respect him on a deeper level than I had even when we were dating. Thank you for the insight you provided me during some difficult times. For the record, I was upset but, I think I had every right to be.
Luckily, that break-up was the BEST decision I have EVER made because, it lead me to the GREATEST adventure I have ever committed. I cannot even explain how happy I am to tell y'all about this.. I'm smiling like some idiot right now. :) On April 12, 2011, I began to instant message one of my best friend's. Although we live in two different countries, we have been close for four (now five) years. From the moment I met Michael, I was more or less obsessed with him. Not in a creeper way but, in the way you feel when you've met someone with the exact same personality as you. And that is exactly what Michael has. My same personality. In every way. Now, I do not brag about my relationships on any other public domain or to many other people so, I will take liberties on this blog that will probably never be read and tell you all about the love of my life.

I love him more than I thought possible.
Honestly. The scariest moment of my life occurred because of him but, at the same time, it was a glorious moment because, it made me realize just how much he meant to me. There is nothing I would not do for Michael and, one day, I would be honored to be his wife. However, that is farrrr into the future. I want to travel the world. Lucky for me, so does he. :) Michael michael michael michael michael. :333 If y'all could only SEE! I pray that you will all be able to experience what I'm going through at some point in your life because, I honestly think I've found my soulmate. When I get in a funk, he makes me laugh, when I miss my family, he skypes me until 5 a.m. trying to make me feel better. When I found out he liked me on April 12, 2011 (which was also his birthday), I could not stop talking about Michael. To everybody. My best friend, Maggie, trust me, she got an earful. I don't even know what I'm saying anymore. :)))) I'm just so HAPPY to be with him. In every way imaginable. On every level. He has seen me through these past 4 years and, I'm glad we waited to actually date until we could physically be together. I don't care what anybody thinks but, I love this boy. Our relationship is spiritually based, raised in a physically world, and nourished under an emotional connection.

<3

I pray for all of you.

Thank you for listening.

p.s. If this is my last post, don't be surprised.

If you believe writing things down makes it 10x more realistic...

God. Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.
Help me to live again.
And show me the light in my life.
Amen.

A tug o' war.

I confuse myself.
My emotions conflict and then I do not know what to do.
Such is life. :)
Life is absolutely... breath taking. I'm not sure if that's supposed to be two words...
whatevs. :)

I HOPE THAT YOU ALL HAVE A WONDERFUL WEEK! :)
I know I will. Surround yourself with the people you love. Only then will you know how to live your life.

I LOVE YOU ALL! :)
adios.